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A Debt of Ice and Embers
Epilogue

I couldn't help but notice the story ended a little too quick for some of you, so I did some writing.

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As Brunemar thaws, I learn that warmth does not banish fear. The world Luceran and I wake to is brighter, yes, but it is also raw and uncertain, shaped by shadows that survived the long winter.

When the sun rises over Castle Frostwyn the next morning, Luceran, Atilia, and I sit at the dining table for a long while in silence. Around us lie the remnants of that horrible night: spilled wine and spilled blood, bright pink fruit left to soften and rot beneath a sun that has been hidden behind winter’s veil for an age.

In the hollow quiet, I glance at Luceran. He lifts a hand to shield his eyes as golden light pours through the windows, melting ice running down the glass in slow rivers. He blinks, turning away when it becomes too much, and I notice how the glow of his mismatched eyes dims, adjusting, perhaps, to a world no longer bound in sleet and gray.

As the cold leaves the land beyond the windows, the sun gives his skin color. He is still pale, but warmth has begun to find him: faint color in his cheeks, in his fingertips, a blush dusting his collarbones.

Yet even with the demon destroyed, with Luceran’s soul freed from the guilt and grief that has haunted him for a century, I know the worst is not behind us. Atilia’s expression makes that much clear. Though I have saved her from a terrible fate, it has not softened her resolve.

“You must send her away,” Atilia says firmly. Her eyes do not rise to enforce the words; they remain fixed on the stone floor. “It is the only way to keep her safe.”

“No,” Luceran says at once, so swift my head snaps toward him. “Her place is at my side.”

Atilia lifts her gaze then.

“Luceran…” She draws a steadying breath. “My son. Please. What you want is forbidden. For a High Fae to take a human lover is one thing. Keep her hidden if you must. But to love her openly. In the light of day… where they can see you…”

“Yes,” Luceran interrupts, his voice steel-cold and unyielding. “Where they can see.”

He turns to me, and though his eyes no longer burn with unnatural light, they are the clearest, most honest I have ever known them. So unguarded it feels as though I am seeing them for the first time.

“I do not want to hide,” he says. “I do not want to live with regret. Not anymore. This castle has been my prison, and I will not spend another day trapped within these walls when Neve has risked her life to set me free.”

His gaze returns to Atilia.

“To set you free, Mother.”

Her nose twitches, as though she has caught the scent of the rotting fruit, but I know that is not what unsettles her. She straightens the lace cuffs on her dress and exhales. Her gaze returns to the floor.

“It is not that I am ungrateful… Neve.” Only when she speaks my name do I realize she is addressing me. “Whatever compelled such bravery is something I am thankful for. But surely you must understand that you and Luceran can never be happy.”

“But I am happy,” I say, and her gaze lifts halfway, reluctant, as if even looking at me costs her something. I glance at Luceran, who sits a few feet away, though the distance between us feels like a chasm. A smile finds my lips despite the horrors that still claw at the edges of my thoughts. “I am happy because I am in love, and because Luceran is free.”

The familiar, condescending click of Atilia’s tongue follows. “Silly human girl. You are living in a dream that can never be real.”

“Mother,” Luceran says, his voice edged with a low, gravelled warning. “If you have nothing worth hearing to offer, then take your leave now. Neve and I…”

“Neve and you?” She is suddenly on her feet, her chair scraping sharply across the stone. “Do you understand what you give up by loving her, Luceran? The lands you will lose?” Her throat bobs as she swallows. “The family you will lose.”

Luceran rises, though not fully straight. He bends slightly, wincing as the lingering pain in his healing body catches him. His jaw tightens as he pushes through it and walks toward me, the vastness of the hall collapsing until there is nothing but the narrow space between us.

He stops behind me and rests his large hand on my shoulder. Where I once braced for cold, sometimes even yearned for it, there is only warmth.

“I would never wish to lose family,” he says, “but I will not love Neve in the shadows, in darkened corners where my title is honored but my heart is not. You spoke of the light of day, Mother, and that is where Neve belongs. With the sun upon her skin and golden light in her hair, and if I must forsake my birthright to stand in that sun beside her, then so be it.”

He pauses, then swallows.

“You watched over me when the darkness tried to drag me to the bottom of that lake, alongside all the others who followed the voice when it called to them. If not for you, I know I would have been dead long before Neve Devlin ever stepped foot in this castle.” His voice softens. “Please do not make me choose between the hand that kept me above water and the hand that will lead me into the light.”

Atilia’s lip trembles, a faint sheen glazing her blue eyes. Her jaw tightens as she straightens her shoulders.

“This is what you want? Truly, Luceran?”

He nods without hesitation.

“And you? Neve Devlin. If you choose my son, your life will never be what it was.”

I smile and tilt my head, looking up at Luceran as his thumb glides slowly along my shoulder. “My life was not so remarkable before. There were glimmers of joy, of laughter and love, but there was pain too.”

“You believe being together will spare you pain?” she asks almost mockingly.

“No.” I shake my head, laying my hand over Luceran’s. “But we will not have to endure it alone ever again.”

Atilia turns her back on us and paces toward the window. The sun strikes her eyes more fiercely than she is used to, yet she does not look away. She stares into the brightening morning, unflinching. Fearless.

“House Taramethos will return soon,” she says. “They will demand answers for what happened here… again. Marlayna will be furious.”

“I am not afraid of Marlayna,” Luceran snarls. “I will deal with her.”

“No, you will not.” Atilia speaks over her shoulder, her voice calm, resolute. “I will. You and Neve will be far away by then.”

Luceran draws a breath, his mouth opening to argue, but as always, Atilia is quicker.

“I will take control of Castle Frostwyn. I will manage the Aurevault. I will curtsy and smile and beg forgiveness from that bitch Marlayna.” She exhales slowly. “I will do all of this because you are my son, and I will protect you always. How fortunate you are, Luceran, to have two souls in your life who wish for nothing more than to love you.” A pause. Then dryly, “Gods know why, as sullen as you are.”

“I cannot allow you to do that,” Luceran says.

“You are not allowing me to do anything.” She turns, arching a brow. “This is your father’s castle, and I have decided to take it back.”

My throat tightens as I rise to my feet. I am not sure how to accept such a gift, only that gratitude burns too fiercely for words. Tears threaten, but Luceran pulls me against his chest, his arm firm around my shoulders. Even he seems uncertain now, as though we have reached the end of a game we never expected to win.

“Go to my estate,” Atilia adds. “Take all the gold you can carry. I have plenty.”

“Mother,” Luceran says quietly. “We do not need your coin.”

Atilia lets out a dramatic groan. “You may be in love, Luceran, but do not be foolish. Even love must eat and pay rent.”

He pauses, drawing a steadying breath. His shoulders rise and fall before he slowly moves toward Atilia.

For a moment, he stands behind her in silence. Then he lifts his hand and rests it on her shoulder. She reaches for him at once, their fingers locking tight as he bends to murmur something into her ear that I cannot hear. Whatever he says makes her laugh softly. She grips his hand as he kisses her cheek.

Luceran turns back to me, and Atilia reluctantly releases him as he crosses the space between us.

“We have to go,” he says.

I nod, my thoughts scrambling to keep pace with everything unfolding. “We should pack.”

He smiles faintly and shakes his head. “I want to leave all of this behind. You are the only thing I need to take with me.”

I fall into his chest, my arms sliding around his waist. I close my eyes as warmth fills me, as I inhale his scent, as the steady vibration of his heartbeat thrums through me until it echoes my own. His hand moves gently through my hair, his lips brushing the crown of my head. Then he chuckles softly, as though reading my thoughts.

“But you would like to bring some books, wouldn’t you?”

I lift my gaze slowly, my lower lip caught between my teeth. “Just a couple.”

He tilts his chin, peering down his nose at me before breaking into a smile and nodding. “Whatever you want.”

He turns toward the door, away from the dining hall, away from his mother. I take a step with him, then hesitate.

His brow furrows, but when my eyes flick to Atilia, understanding dawns. He nods once.

I slip from his arms and cross the floor toward her, gathering courage as I go.

She turns as I approach and immediately rolls her eyes.

“What more could you want, girl?” she groans. “Your weight in diamonds?”

For a heartbeat, I wonder what possessed me to come this close to her, risk being throttled where I stand, rather than leave quietly with my gratitude unspoken. I have never been good at looking before I leap.

“I wanted to say thank you,” I manage, the words tumbling out more awkwardly than I intend. My gaze darts between her sharp eyes and the floor, not quite brave enough to meet her fully. “I know you have never been fond of me…”

“Hmph.” She huffs softly. “I thought you had more sense than that, girl. Of course I am not fond of you. You do not undo centuries of history for one freckle-faced human, no matter how valiant…” My chin lifts. “…or how stupid,” it drops just as quickly, “…she might be.”

Atilia exhales, and then her finger comes beneath my chin, lifting it until I am forced to meet her gaze. For once, there is no annoyance there.

“If things were different, you and I might have gotten along just fine, Neve. I could have watched you and Luceran flourish and bloom.” Her gaze drifts to the window, to where the snow retreats and bright green shoots push through the dark soil. “Just as Brunemar is doing now.”

She looks back at me, something firm settling into her expression.

“But this world is not so kind. So go. Run. Find happiness where you can, while you can.”

I swallow hard, my shoulders shivering though no trace of cold lingers around me. “Do you think they will come looking for us?” I ask.

Something like a smile touches the corner of her mouth.

“Perhaps. But that is not what I mean.” Her gaze sharpens. “Luceran is Fae. Immortal. His years stretch long.” She pauses, letting the truth settle before speaking again. “You are not, Neve, and if you find the happiness you both crave, you will discover just how quickly those years pass.”

Her voice softens, almost unbearably so.

“So go. Now, and cherish all the time you have.”

I want that to be the end of it. I know it should be. My head understands her warning, knows I should take it and leave well enough alone.

But my mouth betrays me.

“The Aurevault,” I say softly, barely more than a breath. “The miners. Even with the demon gone, that place is still…” I falter, searching for words that feel inadequate even as they leave me. “It is cruel, and some of them do not deserve…”

Atilia’s fingers tighten around my chin, the touch no longer gentle, silencing me at once.

“The world turns so slowly that we do not feel it shift,” she says. “The humans will have their day. I feel that deep in my bones, and when that day comes, the Fae will not know it is upon us until the ground gives way beneath our feet.”

Her gaze settles on me, distant now, as though she is already looking beyond this moment.

“Now, for the last time, go.”

She releases my chin, and I do not linger. I step backward, never breaking her gaze, until my spine meets the solid warmth of Luceran’s chest.

“Are you ready?” he asks.

“Yes.” I reach for his forearm, my fingers digging into his skin as Atilia’s words echo through my thoughts. “I’m ready.”

I go to the library first.

I pull my favorite books free one by one and toss them into the air. Mink and Fitz shriek, darting and tumbling as they catch each book mid-flight, their arms filling until they can carry no more.

Luceran watches from the doorway. His lips move as he counts.

I stop at a dozen, just as his patience thins.

We go upstairs next. I fold a small selection of clothes into a case, while Mink and Fitz drop the books carefully on top. I latch it shut with a decisive click, then drag it into the hall where Luceran waits.

He takes the weight from my hands without comment. Around us, ice continues to melt along the walls, water dripping onto stone in a slow, echoing rhythm that fills the castle. Together we descend the stairs, crossing the foyer one last time. When he pulls open the great doors, we are not met with biting cold, but with dappled sunlight spilling across the steps.

The carriage waits at the base of the stairs, horses stamping and snorting, eager to run.

We make it halfway down before I realize a presence I have come to cherish is missing.

I turn back just as Luceran opens the carriage door and puts my case inside.

The castle doors remain slightly ajar, and in their shadow stand Mink and Fitz. They cling to the darkness, though each time I catch a glimpse of their faces, they are staring toward the sun with a mixture of wonder and dread.

“Can they not leave the castle?” I ask softly.

Luceran’s gaze sharpens on them. “They are afraid they will melt,” he says. “Like everything else.”

My eyes widen. “Will they?”

He grins, clearly amused by my concern, and I frown at him in response.

“I still carry winter with me,” he says. He opens his palm, and frost blooms there, a whirl of wind and ice spinning to life, cold and luminous. He purses his lips and exhales gently.

The magic surges forward.

Mink and Fitz squeal, scrambling to escape, but the spell closes around them, drawing them inward. In a blink, they are sealed inside a transparent orb, their tiny forms spinning as it arcs back into Luceran’s grasp.

He lets it hover between us.

Inside, Minx and Fritz drift weightless, suspended in a miniature winter. Snow falls endlessly around them, slow and delicate, flakes spinning and settling only to lift again as though shaken by unseen hands.

“They can travel like this until I make them a proper home. It will keep them cold.”

I tilt my head and reach out, brushing the surface with one tentative finger. It is thin and hard, like sugared glass, and I hiss as the cold bites my skin.

Luceran exhales. “I could have told you that would happen if you’d only asked before touching it.”

“You could have warned me when you saw my finger,” I mutter, sucking at the sting.

“But where would be the fun in that?” he says, smiling.

The ache fades quickly.

“It is beautiful,” I say. “What do you call it?”

He considers, tongue pressing briefly into his cheek. “I have never made one before.” A pause. “Perhaps it is a kind of snow…globe.”

Inside, Mink and Fitz pound their fists against the glass before a sudden swirl of sleet sends them tumbling. Luceran scowls.

“If you would prefer to melt on the steps, be my guest.”

They go very still.

Luceran nods, satisfied.

The snow globe drifts through the carriage door and settles beside my case on the cushion.

“I will drive,” Luceran says.

“I will join you,” I reply, closing the carriage door.

He smiles and lifts me by the waist, settling me onto the driver’s bench before climbing up beside me. The carriage rocks beneath his weight. His tattooed knuckles close around the reins, and then he turns to me.

“Are you sure this is what you want, Neve Devlin?”

Above us, the sun breaks fully through the clouds, warmth spilling over my skin until my fur cloak becomes unbearable. I unfasten the clasp and let it slide from my shoulders, watching as it falls to the ground, settling in a puddle of melted ice.

Then I smile at him.

“I have never wanted anything more.”

The horses surge forward, and we leave Castle Frostwyn behind as the world opens before us.

Despite Atilia’s insistence, we do not go to her estate for gold.

Instead, we turn the carriage east and then north, leaving the roads well traveled and the cities that watch too closely. We disappear into the forest and the rising shadow of the Thraelis Mountains, far from the High Fae and the brittle society that would weigh our love and find it wanting.

There, among ancient trees and stone heavy with memory, Luceran builds us a home.

It is a simple cabin, tucked into the mountain’s slope where the forest thins and the air smells of pine and cold water, with space enough to hold a small, carefully kept pocket of winter for Mink and Fitz.

We make a life there.

We wake with the sun spilling through the windows. We cook together, laugh often, and kiss without ever looking over our shoulders. At night, I ride upon the dire wolf’s back as he races through the towering trees, and in the moonlight we love each other without fear of being seen or judged or torn apart. There are no walls between us but those we choose, no shadows we are forced to hide within.

Seasons pass. Winters soften. Summers linger.

Years slip by so gently I barely notice them.

I write.

At first, it is only for myself. Stories scribbled into the margins of old books, ideas taking shape beside the fire while Luceran sings in a low, steady thrum, his smoke pipe warm in his hand. Soon the stories grow bolder. Adventures instead of dreams. Tales of love and danger, of wild magic and blood-curdling horrors, of worlds that feel vast and alive beneath my hands.

In the evenings, I curl into Luceran’s arms before the hearth and read them aloud. He listens as though every word matters. He says he loves every story, though he admits freely that he is a hopelessly biased critic.

Six years pass like this. Six years of chosen quiet. Of happiness that asks nothing of the world.

Then, one morning, I wake with a thought that will not leave me.

I want to see if my stories can live beyond our walls.

Luceran agrees without hesitation, but Minx and Fritz do not follow. They have grown fond of the mountains, of the quiet and the vast, of the old magic that lingers in the unclaimed spaces between the trees. Of peace.

When Luceran and I leave the cabin, I watch them retreat into the forest until they are nothing more than flickers of movement and memory. The loss settles in my chest, soft but sharp, and I carry it with me as we go.

I take my pages to Lorthys, to the city, to the publisher whose mark graces the spines of my most beloved books. We decide to stay nearby for a time, just outside of town and away from prying eyes, in a small villa overlooking the sea.

I have never seen the ocean before.

It stretches endlessly beyond the window, blue and silver. I stand for long moments simply watching it breathe.

At first, Luceran wears his cloak always. His hood stays low, hiding his ears. He keeps his gaze down when we walk through the markets, speaks little, and meets no one’s eyes. The world has not changed enough to accept a couple like us.

Until one afternoon, when we sit at an inn near the docks, sharing fresh fish and warm bread. The barkeep lingers a moment too long as he sets our ales on the table.

“Are you Fae?” he asks.

Luceran’s head snaps up, and for the first time in years I see the warrior he once was, coiled and ready, power stirring beneath his skin.

The barkeep squints, shrugs.

“Well. Enjoy your meal, you two.”

And then he is gone.

The world does not end. The ground does not open beneath our feet.

So we stay.

Luceran stops wearing his hood. People greet us in the street. They smile. No one stares when I take his hand or when he kisses me in the middle of the square. When my book is published, stamped with the mark I once traced with reverent fingers, we celebrate.

We invite the friends we have made. We drink and laugh and stand together beneath the open sky, in the light, and as the evening wears on and the ocean murmurs beyond the walls, I realize this is the happiness Atilia spoke of.

Not stolen. Not hidden.

Chosen.

And finally, truly ours.

I write more books.

Dozens of them. Every idle thought, every half-remembered dream becomes an adventure. I write by the sea, by the fire, at crowded tables in inns and in the quiet hours before dawn. I write because I cannot not write, because stories have always been how I make sense of the world.

But I do not publish them as Neve Devlin.

Instead, each cover bears the name N. Pattenwald, for the friend who lost his dreams far too soon, whose stories never found their way into the world. This is how I carry him forward. This is how I ensure he is not forgotten.

I earn more coin than we could ever spend, though that was never the point. Still, it is enough that when word reaches me years later that my father has died in Rethmar, full and content in his own bed, I can give him what he was never afforded in life. I bury him on a hill overlooking a sprawling meadow, a marble stone set there with his name carved deep, so that he, too, will endure.

The world turns so slowly we hardly notice it moving, and yet time passes with cruel speed.

One day I look into the mirror and see silver threading through my red hair. My freckles have softened, my skin etched with deep creases born of laughter and wide smiles. My hands ache sometimes. My body reminds me, gently but firmly, that I am human.

Luceran has not changed at all.

He is still tall and broad and impossibly beautiful in the way only the Fae can be. One golden eye. One liquid blue. Summer and winter held forever in his gaze. When he looks at me, I do not see my years reflected back. I see myself as I was, as I am, as I will always be to him.

In his eyes, I am not fading.

I am Neve Devlin. The human who made a bargain with a Fae lord. The girl who became a prisoner in a frozen castle and emerged having slain the demon that claimed his soul. The woman who thawed Brunemar.

That story is legend now, told and retold until it no longer belongs to me alone.

I hear Brunemar is beautiful. That the land is green and alive, the winters gentler than they once were. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever see it again. Castle Frostwyn. The Aurevault. The old farmhouse where my life once fit inside a single room.

But not tonight.

Tonight, I am happy. I am free. I am loved.

I fall asleep at my desk, fingers stained black with ink, a half-finished sentence trailing off into nothing. Luceran lifts me easily into his arms. I laugh softly against his chest, my fingers threading through his long ivory hair as he carries me to our bedroom.

He lays me down on the bed, candlelight flickering across the walls while the ocean roars beyond the window. Starlight dances across the black water, restless and eternal.

He pulls the covers over me, then lies beside me, turning to look at me as though I am some rare and wondrous thing.

And once again, in his gaze, I see myself as I was all those years ago.

Not younger.

Just… unchanged.

He studies me in the quiet, as if counting all the years between our first winter and this gentle night. “If you could choose again,” he asks softly, “would you still come to the castle?”

I lace my fingers with his, feeling the steady truth of him beside me, and smile. “I would walk into the cold a thousand times,” I whisper, “if it meant always finding you waiting on the other side.”

He bends his forehead to mine, his breath warm against my skin. “And I will always be there,” he murmurs, voice sure as stone and soft as snow, “waiting for you, my love.”

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